Curious case of…me

So on Saturday I went and saw the horrible movie, The curious case of Benjamin Button.  In retrospect: the movie probably wasn’t THAT bad, but I hated it.  It was severely sad, obscenely depressing, full of death, and about true love torn apart by circumstance.  All of my favorite subjects rolled up into 3 hours.  I cried the entire movie and left utterly brow beaten, other than that it was fantastic.

On top of that, I had a very vivid dream last night that my mother suddenly passed away.  I can only assume this was brought on by the weekend fun-time movie.  In my dream I was trying to cope with the loss of both parents, figure out if I was going to move back to Missouri to take over the responsibility of keeping up my childhood home, and deal with my brother.  Let’s just say I’ve had more restful nights of sleep. LOL.

Overall these two events have made me wake up today thinking about what I want in 2009.  To elaborate on what I came up with, let me tell  ‘a little story bout a man named Jeb’…LOL.

When I got divorced several years ago, I could always tell the people who felt the most immediate hurt by my decision.  They all stated the same mantra to me “I hope you find what you’re looking for”.  Wherever you all are, and whatever you all are doing right this moment, I want you all to know I did.  It was very simple really. 
I was looking for…me. 
I actually found me about that same time several years ago.   Timing is a glorious and funny thing lol.

That being the case, in ‘09 I don’t want for much.  Sure I have things I would like:  to buy a house again, to raise a loving family, to find a supportive husband and life partner,  to see every country in the world, to stop getting wrinkles and aging so quickly ;  but these aren’t things I am in a hurry to have or can’t live without. 

I am me.  Irregardless of anything else…you either like me or you don’t.  You either want me in your life or  you don’t. You either think I’m special enough to inconvenience a moment of your time, or you let the opportunity pass by.  Either way, I plan on watching 2009 go out the same way it came in…content and with open arms to all possibilities.

~Cheers to not knowing what 2009 will bring and being content with that